I found photography when I was a pre-teen. I liked taking photos as a kid but back then it was film. GASP! THE AGE BEFORE DIGITAL! It happened. I lived through it. ;) In high school I took photography classes. I loved it. However when I went to college I just kept my love of photography as a hobby. I didn't think that photography was an option. So I went for Interior Design instead. The only house I ever was able to design was my own. Why? I choose a different route after college. I choose photography. It was always there. It was always something I loved. I couldn't imagine it not in my life as something BIG.
Now as a grown up I have found my thing. It's obviously photography. I live it. It's really apart of me. My camera is just an extension of my body. It may has well be another arm. It rarely leaves my side. It's been that way for a long time. Pre kids. I can't tell you how many photos I have of Kyle and I. Or the dogs. Or just all the things. Our dates back then were photo dates. We would drive in one direction and get lost. We would stop somewhere and take photos of whatever cool stuff we would find. Those things don't happen much at all anymore because we have 3 kids. We can't just spend a Saturday getting lost. That's okay though, I love my kids. They are beautiful and fun and I love photographing them. I can't wait for summer so we can play outside and take even more photos. All the adventures we can go on. All the new things for K to get to experience. The bigs are used to the camera. They don't always like it, but they just know that is how mom is and mom isn't going to change. Maybe someday they will appreciate it. Right now though, not so much, but that's okay. They are kids.
Kyle has always been my biggest supporter. He loved my photos when we first started dating and always pushed me to follow my dream. He bought me my first BIG camera. My first professional camera. He was the first thing I took a photo of with my big camera. He was there for all of it. Through my struggles with starting a business. Through the ups and downs of it all. He was there. He supported me. He pushed me to do better.
Over the years I have grown so much & I just continue to grow. I know I can be better. I know my photos aren't perfect. I have learned to stop comparing myself to other photographers. I only compare myself to what I used to be. If I can see my photos getting better then I know I am doing it right. And I am. My photos from 2009 are completely different from 2015. I don't even recognize that photographer. I am proud of how far I have come. I am proud of how I built my business from nothing to what it is today. It's crazy to think where I was and how I only imagined where I am now. I always dreamed of having a studio and repeat wonderful clients. I dreamed of taking photos that actually made my gasp. I dreamed of people loving my photos so much that they had them all over their walls.
That happened. That's happening. THIS IS ACTUALLY MY LIFE!!!!!
It's overwhelming. It's wonderful. My life isn't perfect by any means. My life isn't easy. But this one part of my life is more than I can put into words. I found my thing. I found that thing that is me.
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