I hate going to the Doctor. It gives me so much anxiety. I can't even handle it anymore.
Today was K's 4 month appointment. I expected it to be boring. It was a 4 month appointment. It wasn't boring. I left in tears.
Sometime between 9-12 months K will need an MRI. He will be sedated and given an MRI on his spine because he could possibly have a tethered spinal cord. If he does then he will need surgery.
SERIOUSLY! SERIOUSLY! SERIOUSLY!
Can't things just be boring? I just want boring. I want boring and normal. This past year and has so many tears. So many ups and downs.
I have been in tears since we left. The whole thing is scary. The thought of K being sedated scares me. The MRI scares me. I hope he doesn't have to have surgery. I can't even begin to think about that. I started to. Then I lost it. He is so little. He is so perfect.
Since I got home I have been searching to see if a Septated Cystic Hygroma is related to a Tethered Spinal Cord. No such luck on Google. I don't like thinking that K just has random things just wrong with them. I wish it was one thing. Related things. Does that even make any sense?! My brain hurts. :(
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