My midwife appointment was uneventful. There was nothing much that could be done. We just need to wait. Baby K's heart rate is at 160. I already knew that. I already knew it was very much alive. Besides feeling movement I have been using my Doppler every day to make sure it is still alive in there. I don't want to show up to an appointment and be shocked by the news. I'd rather not find it at home and go in to just have it confirmed.
She did say that she has seen these before that have resolved. I am hoping that is the case for us. Kyle came with. He always does. It was nice to have him there. I told myself over and over I wasn't going to cry at this appointment, but I failed. It was nice to have him there and his support. It means more than I could even put into words. After getting the letter yesterday I just needed him there with me. But, hearing her tell us she has seen ones that have resolved did give me a lot of hope. Hope that I desperately needed. I still need it. Every moment is different. I can go from happy to feeling completely defeated in a second. I feel bipolar these days. But, I know it's normal now. All these moms that I have been talking to whose children have this or had this confirm that what I am feeling is normal. I am not broken. I am normal.
Meeting with the midwife
7:09 PM
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